Good friends are a pretty subjective term don't you think? I mean. *sighs* Its really complex. You can not like a friend because of some character traits but you know that even despite that, when it comes to certain situations, you realised that maybe all the superficiality you put into a friendship kinda breaks apart and you see that you do really care for her. Okay, its crubbish, but its my crubbish.
Q came home late, I'm assuming she came home already. But, she went out and didn't tell her mom and the rest of the world is looking for her. Didn't answer her phone, didn't even have the common courtesy to call back or SMS back or something. I mean, at least call back to let your mom and friends know that you're alive and okay right? Even if you did have to lie a little where you are. But... bleargh. Human ethics are so terribly flawed and so terribly screwed. Can never understand it. Maybe that explains why I never want to venture into psychology and be a shrink of some sort. Though it'll be pretty fun to screw around people's minds. >.< Right right. Bad girl.
Nothing much happened today. Really. *thinks* Woke up quite late, did a lot of inconsequential crap, watched the PPG movie (of which I had to rewind coz my sister wanted to watch it and then I fell asleep waiting for it to get to the part I had stopped) and slept. Right. Okay, so I read a book too. Nothing much. Completely procrastinated in writing the script for my part of the Project Work, which will be tomorrow, or today as you see it. Or read it. Wait, yeah. Monday.
Tried designing a new layout but nothing came out. Played around with the idea of crystals but the end result sucked. Completely, so I just gave up. Cleaned my area up just a little, made it look remotely presentable. Wrote down a list of things to do. Oh yeah, I forgot to pack my bag for later. Bugger. Have to remember where I kept everything. Bleargh.
Spent most of my time online reading stuff, replying mail, reading through blogs and looking at guitars and hockey sticks. Didn't go on iRC until much later. Mood was considerably... affable. Actually bothered talking in #existentialism. Most of the time I'm terrified of talking in there because the peoplea re much more well-read, well-versed in philosophy and politics and stuff. I wouldn't mind grabbing a mentor from there and have the basic essentials of existentialism drilled into me, but... well, quite a number of them got attitude problems. Some enjoy using their high intellect to degrade and demean others. Ie Defamed, Guest etc etc. Yeah. Those kind of people I do not like and thus are one of the main reasons why I never bothered chatting there. Even my junior, who was tame and docile before drugs and alcohol and SI overtook her, became one of those I'm-far-more-intelligent-than-you-are-so-shut-up-and-let-those-with-brains-talk. *sighs* Sad ain't it?
They're having a BBQ, which obviously I will not be attending. Which reminds me, maybe Zhen is still at MiklBar partying her ass away. *grynn* Hope you managed to konk up some real cute Draco-look-a-like.
Found out quite a few new things about myself that I never bothered looking before. Belief and all that shit. Maybe I've been influecned by all those heal-the-soul shitty books. Or maybe its just the whole genre of pseudo-romance (which is more often than not about sex). Yep. I'd say more but the whole length of my back is just... numb and aching. Can't move without wincing in agony. Nyergh. Must remember to buy black cloth for the robe sometime soon or I'll be terminally screwed for the cosplay. >.<
Right, shall go and see what the ending of that stupid movie is, decide whether I wanna watch 'Save the Last Dance' tonight or get my butt to doing my script. I think the movie sounds good. Toodles!
And ohhh. Good luck to everyone who's gonna take their 'A's!!! Like Raydance, Toshi and Mae. And... err... more. Braindead, again. Hee. Good luck! *hugs*
relieve eternity; [ 11:51 p.m. ]
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Right. Being at my uncle's place kinda made things a whole lot clearer to me. Understood certain things and I guess I came to terms with a few untied/loose ends as well. Felt so much happier and lighter. The humid weatherr didn't affect me the least and for a short moment as well, I felt slightly closer to my mom even though I didn't say anything to her.
Course, it could be because I was just leaning against her shoulder and she kissed me on the forehead. Such forms of affection is kinda rare from mom these days. Did the same thing to sis. Sis was perplexed. Had this extremely flummoxed look upon her face. I was just giggling away.
*smiles* Finally found my passion and a few answers. Think he's asleep so I shan't disturb him. Gonna go look at some hockey sticks and DIY robe sites. I have to get to work on Cho Chang's robes for the cosplay. *nyerk* Heheh... does this mean I get a broomstick too?
relieve eternity; [ 10:03 p.m. ]
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Decided to try Raydance's thingy. *gryynnn*
1. I am tired, I can't really feel my legs and I. Am. PARCHED!!!
2. Can't wait for fasting month to be over... haha... right before it has even begun.
3. Only 26 more days. *bashes head against wall*
4. I'm going to get a hockey stick. Kinda decided it might be the Grays. It's of the appropriate length and weight for me. Planning to do more research.
5. I love my nephew even though he screeches and runs away when he sees me. *grynn* But he's so ADORABLE!!!
6. I'm kinda afraid of death. But I think the fear of losing someone is even more. Keep wondering what it'll feel like if I lost my parents or my sister. *touch wood* It's a horribly feeling. were
7. I'm sorry to mummy, daddy, sistee boo and brother for being a pain in your arses. Heck, I'll ask for forgiveness on Hari Raya. Bwahahah.
8. I want a digiCam. *sighs* digiCam withdrawal. Hahaha. Wait, I never had one to begin with.
9. NaNoWriMo is going on terrible I decided to scrap the first story and now I'm stuck with the second one. I. Am. Doomed.
10. Where is Hime? I miss her.
11. I have to go clean up my room. And throw away stuff. And start revision for next year. Ergh. And do all the homework assigned and STOP being a procrastinator. ARGH!!!
12. If I train and do jogging at least twice a week, maybe I'll drop to 48. But its not good for my BMi. Then again... doing so will only increase muscle mass. Dammit.
13. I want to watch Harry Potter.
14. I'm tempted to call him and talk to him but I'm going to bungle it up because I have nothing remotely uncrappish to say.
15. I am going to sleep.
16. Its almost about two hours left before I can eat. Bought cold drinks. Coke deprives you of your stamina so now I have to start drinking H20. Are they mad?!?!?
17. Why do I have this strange feeling Viv's friend is trying to ask me out? And why does desperado keep SMSing me to watch a movie? And why does the other Crab person keep whining to me on and on and on about how he lost his girl to some stupid SAF moron and 't do anything about it and rants on and on about revenge and all that cock-a-doodle shit and yet does NOTHING and expects to have SOMETHING done in return for his woes etc etc.
18. What's with everyone's problem picking on me? Its not as if I have a serious attitude problem right? Sheesh. I AM nice dammit! Only when I want to be, and relatively, to the right people.
19. Why do I keep talking rubbish to me? Does love incapacitate people?
20. Why am I afraid?
Interesting... Okay. Now I -really- am going to sleep. *snorrreeesss*
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Bleargh. Today was a tiring day. Just got back. I shoulda been back like an hour ago but wanna know something? I took the wrong bus. Landed in Toa Payoh and had to wait for the other bus to get me back home. *mutters* The last time this happened was in Sec 3. Kept taking the bus on the wrong side and ended up in Hougang. And I thought my days of 'lostness' was over. Trash manz... And now my tummy is growling.
So now I'm tired, hungry, sleepy, incensed and just... bleargh. YEARGH! Nope, not very angry/moody. It was the sun. But... the walk to the bus-stop (which led me to the wrong interchange) was quiet interesting. Finally figured out where the Speakers' Corner was. Really corner. O_o. Interesting sights. Would have taken some photos.
Went for training, was fifteen minutes late because I kinda overslept. But yeah. No Coach and no Mdm Tan so there was no stick work. Did physical training instead. Quite cool and it really did test me. I mean, imagine running five rouns around the track plus two sets of PT without ever stopping for water and stuff. Someone was complaining or more like drooling at the watercooler. Whoaa... sad huh? Anyway, after that, we all headed down to Peninsula to look at hockey sticks. More specifically for the goalie because the school was going to subsidise hers. Found a few interesting ones. Not bad. The best was seventy-five bucks. Hunted for my own, fell in love with two. One was from TK (36.5 Midi) and the other was Grays (36.5 Midi also). Pretty too. The TK one was orange the Grays was neon pink. Bwahahaha. Quite affordable. Around 30-40 bucks. Hmm... only thing left is to go all the way there again to buy the sticks. And not get lost on the way home. *mutters* Should have just followed them home.
Was trying to figure out why I have a problemmaking commitments and it kinda boiled down to two things. I'm afraid that it'll change me and that I'll lose my sense of self. Its a really dumb story of which I won't go through the details here. Have to find a way to relate it all articulately later. *sighs* Somehow... I think its already changed me.
I wish I wasn't so scared.
relieve eternity; [ 03:40 p.m. ]
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Sometimes, dinner table topics can be really... morbid. Father was talking about how tired he was and mom alluded it to the fact that he was going. Then she went on about how we all grow old and we can't escape it and eventually, we'll all die in the end.
Okay... so now I know where I got that morbid streak from.
Have 'Save the Last Dance' and 'Lilo and Stitch' from Kim. Was bored after the Malay paper (which was hell and of which I will end up scoring a C6 and then get an earful from mom etc etc etc) and waited for them to finish lunch at KFC. Was ranting by myself there (with the occasional sotto voce by Xiang) and almost quite literally bashing my head against the table. Worried for my imouto because of her sudden SMS. Its so trite but I do hope she's alright now. Can only understand what she's going through.
Went to the library, returned books and borrowed some, bought a blue scrungie and then left for Kim's house where we (Wan, Xiang and me) just sat there and watched TV with her. There was some Taiwanese variety show that was going on and had boys racing Tamiya cars on this track. Quite funny. Then two girls and a guy was playing this guitar game with a game type like DDR/Para-para. Hilarious. All the while the four of us were just critiquing and making comments until Kim's sister fled.
>.<
Left for home around 3 with Wan and reached home only around 4. Slept all the way till 7. *yawns and stretches* Feel revitalised. Mwahahaha. And I've got training tomorrow. Shit. Must make sure I get my shinpads from God knows where they are. Need to SMS group members to come to school tomorrow as well. Finish the OP once and for all.
Well, might make another layout and do GP then... er... sleep again? Man...
relieve eternity; [ 07:25 p.m. ]
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Its amusing how I never sound like myself after I've recorded my voice. Trying to figure out if I ought to change the cover version I did for Neo's band. Akervoinn|xus. Spelling hazard. Anyway, its called So Small a World. Yeah... mentioned it sometime ago. Was listening to it again.
Been re-reading a few entries from the past, and it made me recall what Korgy said to me earlier today. That he blogged because it was a way of preserving his history. I'm wondering what kinda history I have. At present, everything looks dull and murky here.
I know I should have been asleep hours ago but don't know... I slept earlier today and just got out of the shower now. Was contemplating the mood of the earlier entry. Paranoia and an over-active imagination. I have to stop second-guessing myself. Its becoming a habit. *snerks* Wanting to See You Smile is doing well I guess, for reaching 2000 plus words. Its my NaNoWriMo project. And its going to end up like total shit. Amazingly though, its an interesting piece of crap that's like Nana (which is not crap) only based on a more local setting. Hrmm... Might try adding another chapter later today when I come home from school. Which reminds me, I've got an exam today. Second language, and all I did was stare at the paper. I'm screwed, quite officially. But that's nothing new ne? *grynnn*
Maybe if my energy permits (because its the fasting month), I'll go visit hime at her shop. I kinda miss her. *sighs* And maybe I need someone to knock proper sense into me. Was trying out different people online, none seemed to do the trick. Or maybe I should do it the cheap and convenient way - bash my head against a wall.
On an off-tangent note, Jenni from Injenue.com is back. Interesting site. I am beginning to get drawn by sites with webcams. Erghhhh this is bad. >.< Makes me sound like some freaky voyeur. (I'M NOT!!!)
Finished reading ZOMBIE POWDER. Found that Akutabi Gamma is quite cute. Am trying to find more stuff to read. Hopefully it'll give me inspiration. Right. Now I'm really going to log off and sleep. Eyes getting tired, arms as well and dammit if I need a new keyboard. Stupid space bar going all wonky on me. *mutters*
relieve eternity; [ 12:36 a.m. ]
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Came back from watching Sweet Home Alabama with him. Was a random decision made last night. Didn't really want to spend today staying at home/school and idling my life away. *shrugs* The movie was sweet, something else was sweet. But it got me thinking as well.
*sighs* How do you talk to someone without sounding like a complete bimbo/airhead? This is one of the few times I'm actually at a loss of words. Maybe because I'm so afraid of saying the wrong things that I end up saying ever weirder things in the end. I don't know. How can you love someone and yet be so terrified to tell them? Wait, there's a logical explanation to that one.
Was reading this e-mail a friend sent about this girl who's mother bought plastic pearls and then every night her dad would come and ask her for the pearls. Each night she'd tell him to take her other precious belongings but never the pearls and each time he said its okay. Then finally one night, after months of asking, she finally relinquished it; only to have her father give her a -real- set of pearls.
Moral? If you let go of something you love and treasure now, God will give you something more previous and rare in return.
But then comes the case of what if the things you have now are already the ones that God has given and yet you give them away not knowing their true value and worth? And then you expect God to bestow upon you more gifts and beauty and treasure?
Sitting beside him, half in silence and the other raking up really dumb stuff to say, I was reminded another mail that was sent to me. If you truly love a person, let them go. If all this while I was unable to let him go, did it mean then that I truly did not love him? And so now that I see that I may only be the cause of much woe and aggravation to him, maybe I should let him go. If only so that he could find the true one who complemented him. Argh! I'm doubting everything. I'm worried for everything. ARGH! I just don't know anything anymore. What I did know... was that at that moment, I had felt loved and I loved in return even though I was terrified that any movement I may have made would have broken the moment. Silly right? *sighs* Why do I always make my life so complicated?
I wish I could understand. I wish life and its ethics weren't so confusing. I wish there was an answer to my problems. I wish I could be assuaged.
Right. Word of the moment: Flummox. I'm going to sleep now. I'm tired, sleepy and distressed.
relieve eternity; [ 02:28 p.m. ]
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I joined NaNoWriMo. I'm in trouble. >.< I have a horribly nasty habit of never finishing what I start. Egads! And I will die a horrible death and get burnt at the stake for making people writhe and squirm in agony of wanting to know what happens next.
*snerks* As if! Bwahahaha. Was trying to do Malay today because I didn't go to school. Near asthmatic fit earlier. Couldn't breathe and each time I did, the left side of my chest hurt damn bad. Didn't tell mom, I mean, what could she do? Rush me to the hospital? As if. She doesn't even know my shoulder muscle is like nearly torn, same goes for the heel. Ah well. Feeling better already. Was a pain, kept wincing.
Fasting was fine, for the first day. Tummy only started rumbling at three plus. Amazingly. Then he called and I forgot about food completely. Hehehe. His cousin is adorable, cute. Unlike him. Hmpf.
So yeah. Gonna write the first chapter, do Malay and ponder what the hell to do tomorrow. *sighs*
relieve eternity; [ 09:38 p.m. ]
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Yepz. So today was the beginning of school after an extremely long weekend. From camp to Deepavali and stuff. *yawns* Not to mention the fact, last day I can ever eat in broad daylight. Fasting starts tomorrow. Hmm... don't think it'll create that much an impact. Considering how I usually don't bother eating anyway.
So yeah, spent the morning doing stupid SAT thingy. Was talking rubbish with Xiang and discussing plans on how to escape the dreadul torture of sitting there and letting our brains rot and slowly die. Was going to vanish after a toilet break but then the teacher was getting suspicious of how girls were slowly leaving the lecture theater and never coming back. So heck, stayed until the very end then we just exited school the moment we were released for break. Spent the next hour and a half waiting for Seoul Garden to open. Read magz in the library and just... literally, stoned.
Then SG opened, hurrah! Everyone (Ivy, Xiang, Shu, Kim, Me and Xuan) was grumbling because we were famished. Went in, sat down and then grabbed food to cook. Haha. Half the time they were cooking and I was just eating. Ate only fishball and prawns. Hey... they were the easiest to cook. *grynn* Yummy too. Then whatever they finished cooking, they just chucked it onto my plate. Seemed they were more content cooking than eating. O_o. Nevermind. Hahaha. Our soup became chao tared after awhile then someone (I think Xiang) went and got cold water to pour it in to add more volume. Hahaha. Looked good but tasted bad. >.< Dared Ivy to taste it. She did, went YEEEK and then did all those face scrunching thingy. Hehehee. Ate ice cream, two bowls and then jsut rotted there waiting for food to digest in the tummy.
Mistress was saying how she was now four months pregnant.
Eating ice kachang now. Don't ask me why. Anyway, went to Guardian to look at hair dyes. Not really interested coz they didn't have anything remotely purple or blue. *shrugs* Was looking at nail polish and playing with them. Then got a little scolding from the lady-in-charge. Teeheehee.
Went back to school, stoned for PW and then waited for him at the grandstand. Oh yeah, Hamidah came back to JJ. Err... interesting? There wasn't much to say to her. Don't know. Felt maybe a little mean in wanting her to get home. She just goes... on and on I guess. The kind of person who'll just keep reminding you that you should be grateful for everything that happens to you etc etc etc. Right. *sighs* Well, she's skinnier, thats one thing. Wore make-up too. But bleh, all the times I went out with her, she usually does wear make-up. I'm the one always dressing so sloppily. >.< Aiieee... Heck care. But yeah, sent her off then went and just sat at the grandstand and talked to him. Some lame and corny stuff then we went off to go home. Was already quite late but I figured... I don't know. I wouldn't mind reaching home late if it meant spending just that little bit more time. Weird huh?
*burp* Trying to finish the ice kachang mommie bought. My sis and bro both finished earlier than I did. Dammit! Its like... so much. Ergh. Maybe its coz I'm still full from just now. >.< Am supposed to sleep soon because I lost the bet. Dammit. But I'm tired anyway. Wondering about school tomorrow. Have to go, at least sit somewhere obscure and do work. Really screwed because dad is giving me -really- weird looks. Shit. And mom is asking about it as well. And my brother and sister is teasing me about how if I fail, I'll be the only one. Dammit!
Right... deciding whether or not to go to school. Bleargh. I don't want to. I want to stay at home and sleep in my very very comfy bed. Yeahhhh. And then... hmm... okay nevermind. I'll go and slack and stone. Or go and step out again and head somewhere else. Yep yep. Dammit. Times like these I really wish I had a digiCam. *sighs* Oh well. Gonna log off to sleep. Waking up early (very) for sahur and stuff. Yeah. Nites.
I'm supremely dehydrated. Eeks!
relieve eternity; [ 10:04 p.m. ]
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Isn't it ironic how you want to be happy for a friend about her love life but then you're just sick and tired of when she says the guy doesn't like her or she's unpopular with guys (when she damn well is) and that she's ugly, fat etc etc when she's actually much more prettier than you are?
*sighs* I don't think I can be quite bothered anymore. Either way, I'm getting pushed aside. She'd be preferring the company of others now. Its kinda funny how initially we were really good friends and then drifted apart and then when we came to JJ she just clung back to me all over again. Its like one of those... I only need you when I've got no one else kinda stuff right?
Okay... so sometimes I let myself be used and abused too much >.<. Dammit. But maybe I'm just being overly petty and paranoid and stuff. Yeah.
Talking to Viv's skater friend. Weird guy. Very weird. But he's nice and interesting. Shall have to go iron my uniform later and then strategically plant my results slip on the table for mum to sign. *goes eek* I'm screwed. Terribly. And I better buck up for malay or I'll never be forgiven. *sighs*
relieve eternity; [ 11:04 p.m. ]
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As I promised, the details to camp. Not really interesting.
[ Thursday ]
Wokkayy... lessee. Went to sch in uni, changed in sch, left my blouse in the locker (dammit) had the smallest bag as compared to the res tof my mates. Grouped with tennis and bowling. Bowling tends to stick their own lot, tennis people were relatively much more nicer. There's this girl who looks like Lili and another who's really funky and cute.
Took bus, realised it really IS a few stops away from home. Bunked in the G dorm with the girls and some other more from this other group. Was in group 7. Realised Jason ain't that bad. A lil lame at times, but he's generally pretty cool.
First day was spent doing the belaying thing for rock climbing. Climbed, but not allowed to reach the top. Then did a lot of cheering till my voice nearly vanished. Got irritated by Quin but guess she's too blisfully happy with Touch to bother. *shrugs*
Lunch was... bland, but it was food nonetheless. The outdoor dinner tasted so much better. Baked beans tastes good even if its still in the can. The chicken curry was weird. Never knew Maggie could be so heavenly.
Was so bored before lights out that I borrowed Lene (or more like she offered) to SMS him. Prior to that, she was talking to her darrrrrling and Ivy and I were constantly irritating and interrupting her.
Ivy is damn cool.
Slept on the floor because I was on the lower bunk and there was no ventilation.
[ Friday ]
Lotsa activites. Did the banner painting, ours was the most colourful but we didn't win (expected). Soccer and Netball did however, amazingly. Was told by someone that usually happens. They say its a conspiracy thing. As expected. Did confidence course. Initially afraid, I'm a wuss when it comes to heights. But did it. View was wonderful. Did zip-lining. Stomach literally curled foer the first few miliseconds. Then I screamed all the way.
Fun. *grynnnn* Very very fun. Won't mind doing it again.
General Stations wasn't that bad. Died in the acid river and fell on top of someone on the balancing thing. Climbed the wooden wall thing and pulled right arm, as in muscle, or skin or whatever. Stung throughout the day.
BBQ and campfire at night. Was irritated and obscenely moody during BBQ thus didn't join in discussion for the campfire item. Mood lightened up considerably when Coach came and brought us chocolates. Heee. Nothing beats depression than chocolate. Hockey girls were worried as to why I was very... moody. Tried cheering me up but failed, didn't want it to get worse so I excused myself politely and fled to bunk. Didn't talk much.
Campfire was cool. Loved the item by group 4. Damn funny. The cannobal thingo and stuff. Was watching Q's EC. Realised he resembles a lot like a rat. *shrugs* BZ gave her BBQ-ed chicken. I have this strange feeling that its a triangle. BZ likes Q who likes D who prolly likes her only as a friend. Bah. She'll antagonise about it to me on Tues.
Ching came, her bday last night. Sang songs and danced and cheered like mad people. Was really proud to be a JJCian. By 11 plus was getting tired. ES said camp was slack, I think being enthusiastic and screaming and stuff takes a lot of energy. Maybe the heat was getting to me.
Waiting for them to get ready to bathe, fell asleep at the foot of the bed; Lene at the head. Then got poked awake, was grumpy but staggered to bathroom to bathe nonetheless. Camp tee is green. Ew colour. But design was cool because it was done by a team member.
Group 7 rules!
Sat out for awhile to see the stars but there were none. So gave up. Girls were teasing me bout my love interest. Ivy gave more information than was necessary. >.< After that I just konked out. ES said I looked sweet when I was asleep. Right... and I heard him say something about me being very... can't remember. Mad. Can't trust the fella.
Lene was telling me he SMSed back saying something about good luck trying not to think of him. I was scrunching my face, she was laughing. Right right. Don't think I even thought much. Was too tired/wasted the whole day.
Packed bag, konked out on my bed. Couldn't be bothered with finished the BBQ-ing nor when Q was saying nites to Lene and me.
Woke up at 5 plus because mosquitoes were attacking my leg. Dammit.
[ Sat ]
HOME HOME HOME!!! Had our final meal before cleaning up. Took the bedsheets, folded and sent them back to the room. Then they did the debriefing etc in the hall. Was falling asleep halfway through in the end.
Did the Emotional-Web thingy. Quite interesting. Web was fun. There's this girl who reminded me of Jenni from injenue.com. But she's so damn screechy and shrill, kinda got irritated by her a little. Even Ivy was sharing this look of 'really?' with me when someone was saying she was very enthu and encouraging.
Half the time during the discussion for campfire item, kept suggesting different things and changing it. >.< Right. Vot-eva.
Did survey. Listened to the P.E teachers talk. Mr. Seah enjoys annoying me. >.< Earlier on yesterday, said something about making me do one-legged hop because I didn't touch the top of the rock-climbing thing.
*whine* But I was tireddddd. Hey... belaying not an easy job ya know. *pokes* Think my musles are slightly more toned now. Hahaha.
Finally got home. Didn't take the bus back with them (are you mad?) so walked to the bus-stop. Think I explained the details of the journey back earlier. But yeah. That was basically about it.
[ Overall ]
JJ guys can be nice, but they're not all very gentlemanly. And they can be so uninitiative and quiet that it sucks. Ruggers, are okay people when on their own. In groups, they become elitist and snobbish. Female. Never knew there was a Health and Fitness Club overall. Netball and soccer are always together I was told. And its not the Council's fault... ES -is- weird. He's nice when he's not always picking on me to beat me up or something. R is constantly horny. Am so very tempted to buy a digiCam. Easier to take photos.
Survived camp without MD or phone!!! (was in fact the only one who didn't bring either *grynnn*
Talked to him till 3 last night/morning then my dad came out of the room and gave me the evil eye and I quickly turned off the lights and said good night. *sighs* Told him I missed his voice then he called me so that I could call him back. Aiieee... I'm such a sucker.
I've gotnomore blogback or comment thingy because my layout doesn't approve of it. So if you guys want (and can, please please pleas) leave messages in my newly-found guestbook. Hahahaha. Yep yep. That's about it. Happy belated Deepavali. *grynn*
relieve eternity; [ 12:01 p.m. ]
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Well, Blogger decided to be a major bitch and not let me publish any of the new layouts and stuff. Tried it with a friend's blog and still it didn't go according to plan. Was so pissed with it I actually got a headache. *frown*
Anyway, went to Viv's house today for Deepavali. Really cool. Went with Xiang and Shu and we were the first to come and leave. Haha. Was singing songs in his room while he played with his axe. Damn cool. Kept reminding him to bring his guitar to school on Tuesday. Bwahaha. Then I can sing and sing and sing and flood the whole of JJC.
Anyway, was away for the past three days because of camp. Couldn't really blog it because of my present layout scheme. >.< Heee. But it was okay. Not too happening. *yawn* Shall put what I placed in the OD here, soon. I guess. Pondering if I should go and take a shower. Sis is back from... London. No Harry Potter stuff.
Awww...
Maybe I'll make all my layouts like this. Think it should be relatively much more easier. Can't find a good image host as well. Dammit. Why is everything going so wonky and screwy now?! Dammit. I have Malay AO on Friday. Shit shit shit!!!
*curses*
relieve eternity; [ 11:06 p.m. ]
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